Fear. I wake up fearing something will go wrong. My mind is already on overdrive and some thoughts are scarier than others. I try to avoid them. But i can’t.
Fear. I drink my coffee thinking about the things i have to do today. I can’t help but feel overwhelmed. I try to breathe deeply. But i can’t.
Fear. It ran through my spine. I have a lot to do today but i feel like i’m paralysed. I try to think about something else. But i can’t.
I hate feeling like this.
Fear. I have to stop thinking about it and start doing the things on my to-do list. I just need a little push. I know i can do it. But i can’t.
Fear. The day is over. I didn’t do the things i was supposed to. I try not to be too harsh on myself. But i can’t.
Fear. I have troubles to fall asleep tonight. I’m disappointed in myself. I try to quiet my thoughts. But i can’t.
This is what fear feels like.
It’s there, almost all the time. Some days, i can’t do anything about it. Some days, i can. I tell myself that it’s okay.
I’ll try again tomorrow.